Last but not least?

Sorry. Yes, I took a little break.

There really isn't too much to say about the past couple of months. It's been really bad, Dad's pretty much the same, I'm burned out, and Mom's exhausted. There's your update.

But seeing as I seriously owe you, I thought I'd at least cap off 2010 with one more and then make some sort of resolution to update on a more regular basis...that'll probably last like 2 weeks or so...

Two words I feel embody the spirit of this holiday season for my mom and myself would be "shitty" and "sad." And I mean that in all sincerity, and hopefully without offense to you. There's this giant emptiness that somehow always hurts, even though Dad is actually still with us (which, shhhh I'm not supposed to say this, actually makes it harder). Sometimes I think if my dad had been a little more of a wallflower, less dynamic, not quite such a big personality, I wouldn't miss him so much...but then again, I would never wish that. I'm heart broken. You would think after 7 months it would start hurting less, but it doesn't. And this is why the holidays were shitty and sad for me.

However, we have been absolutely overwhelmed by kindness and generosity this holiday season as well, much of it very surprising and a true testiment to my dad's character. I'm bitter, and sarcastic...but I do believe in the strength of the human spirit, and (yes, Nana) the possibility of miracles.

And so with that, I'll just bid a big fat ADIOS to 2010 with my two middle fingers flying high and welcome this new year with arms wide open.

P.S. Next time I write, I promise to actually update you on details of Dad's condition. Cheers.